Does anyone really know us?

Does anyone know what it is like behind our own eyes?

Think about it. We have people around us everyday. We have classmates and workers. We have friends and family. But can you honestly say that you have someone who knows you in the nucleus of your soul?

It probably seems like an easy question for some of you. Some of you are like "Oh yeah. I know someone like that. It's my best friend" or "What kind of moron does not know that family always knows everything about you." Well, I have bad news for you. You will be lucky if you find two people who know you for who you are.

I mean look around. You think that something looks like an apple one day, only to find out that it is an orange the next. The people who you are supposed to look upon the most turn out to be the ones who hurt you the most. The ones that you have looked after for years turn out to be the knife that stabs you until you can't feel anything anymore.

Within moments, friends have become enemies. Lovers have become filled with hatred. You end up arriving at the same conclusion every time. No one knows what it is like to be ourselves.

And the cause of this is what boggles us the most. Well, it boggles me at least. Petty junior high school drama could lead to a nuclear meltdown. Words ended up being taken out of context. Some people who have no reason to get involved decide that that they have every right to get into situations that should have remained petty high school drama.

Some people then choose to get others involved to explain what they think has happened. Well guess what. A cousin's uncle's sister's brother's grandparent's daughter will not know what happen unless the same cousin's uncle's sister's brother's grandparent's daughter was the person who was involved in the situation. In reality, that is rarely the case.

In reality, there are probably 2 to 3 people who know what happened in any given situation. And unless one of them happens to be an innocent bystander or an unbiased witness, then all of their stories are all faulty. We all would spin it in a way just enough to tint the truth of the tale that we are telling. You know that you do it. Don't lie to me. What is that I hear? Is someone saying, "Why do you think I am lying? I don't do this! It is never my fault!"

Well, I have some bad news for you. A situation is never just one person's fault. This is not to say that the blame is shared evenly. It is to say, however, that if there weren't two or more people to begin with, then there would not be a situation to begin with.

The irony of all of this is that some people spin everything to make it someone else's fault. They would lie straight to your face in a game that makes Congress look like a playground.

Then again, what is life more than a huge game of politics? You try to find out who you can align yourselves with. When you find out that they stabbed you in the back, you try to move on to the next set of people. You are trying to represent a group of people (heritage, family, friends, etc) while you are doing all of these things. And in the end, what do you have to show for it?

Some people decide to feed their egos. They would lie to the face of their own mother on a daily basis. They would commit slander against the other person to all of their family and friends. Unknowing to them, the other person is doing similar things.

And unknowing to all of us, word goes around faster than we want to believe. Both sides of any given drama hear the cousin's uncle's sister's brother's grandparent's daughter version of what happened somehow would reach numerous people. Especially people who we had no intention of it getting to.

So if this is the case, then how can anyone decide who is right and wrong? Well, there is the fact that facts can not have any spin. For instance, an email that would prove one person's case over another could prove a person's case. Especially, they could use it if they ever watched "The People's Court" once in their lives and remembered to print anything of importance.

Now comes the part where you are asking "if this is the case, why don't you just go to the other person and kick them in the nuts?" My answer is this. What good would it do to kick them in the nuts if they won't acknowledge the pain that comes from it? If you do not want to believe what is going on, then you will never be able to see in color.

And if you are never to see through your self-tinted vision, then you can never see the world. And if you can never see the world, then the world would never be able to see what you are like.

And if that is the point, then is it really possible to change anything? You know you are right, but being right does not make everything right. Because, if some people choose to see the world in their blue tinted glasses for their entire lives, then no one can see you for you. They can't see your feelings or your pain. And what good would you be trying to tell them something if they can't (or won't) see it through their tinted world?

It does none. Your dreams would be empty. Like how your conscience seems to be. Your longings will never bee free. And you know what? No one will ever know you.

No one would know what it's like to be the bad man; the sad man; behind blue eyes.



One more thing: I don't have all the answers. But I do have MY TWO CENTS.